Is your hustle tied to your self-worth?
I feel like it’s been awhile since I’ve written. How are you? How is your soul? Happy, I hope. I’m in the midst of what I’m calling a pause. A stage in my life where I’m embracing a void and using stillness as the leading grace. To fully embrace this stage I am not creating anything new. And it feels strange. Uncharted territory for me. Since I embarked on the path of becoming a Guide + Coach I’ve been in a continuous cycle of creation. New freebie. New course. New website. New content for social media. New 1:1 offerings. New workshops. New professional trainings. And the list goes on and on… I’m exhausted just writing it! This state of go go go... create, create, create...do, do do… has been my norm for 5 plus years. Possibly my life. I’m still unraveling and processing that. At first embracing this pause was difficult, but the more I lean in the easier it’s become. When we step outside of our norm new insights often arise. And this pause has brought me a HUGE moment of clarity which I knew I needed to share with you.
I wasn’t creating from a place of fulfillment, I was creating because I didn’t feel worthy unless I was.
My constant go was rooted in the wound of not enough and I felt I needed to do more to prove my worth. Basically, my hustle was tied to my self-worth.
I’m still exploring this. Like a ball of yarn, unraveling to see how deep it goes. But this I know to be true, the constant go is not sustainable.As women, we ebb and flow. And having a healthy balance between doing and stillness is crucial to our well-being. We cannot reside in one or the other. We need both. At the beginning of this I asked if your soul is happy.If we’re in constant creation or doing mode our souls don’t have time to breath.
Our souls don’t live by to do lists.
What would it take to slow down?
To not have your calendar fully booked everyday?
To reside in stillness instead of the hustle?
And what does your soul truly desire?
This journey of becoming is a lifelong process. As Rumi is credited with saying, “The wound is the place where the light enters”.
Shining a light on the shadows is just the beginning.
The real work begins with breaking the cycle and societal norms that don’t serve us.
Collectively, lets come together to heal the not worthy wound because the truth is sister, we are beyond worthy.Until next time, sending love and light from the shadows,
xo,
Em
