My 39th Solar Return & breaking the cycle of not enough
Writing a review of the year has been one of the rituals I have honored for the past several years. Around this time when the new year is approaching, I celebrate the year that is ending so that I can start the new year off fresh.Every time I have sat down with the intention to do this for 2020, I felt uninspired. This year has had high highs and low lows. Collectively we’ve been challenged in so many ways. It’s a year I’m sure we’ll all remember and talk about for the years and decades to come. Even though this year was tough, I feel deeply grateful for the time and space it gave me. I feel deeply grateful for who I've become in the midst of so much collective chaos.If you need inspiration for an end of the year ritual, I wrote this article last year. It’s the same process I personally follow. 
On the day of the Winter Solstice, I celebrated my solar return and turned 39. I bought myself flowers, spent the day on my own, and created a vision for my life. It was one of the best birthdays I’ve had. Christmas followed the same suit.
This year for my birthday and Christmas I’ve decided I’m giving myself my dream life. It’s not that entering the last year of my thirties has been a wake up call, but rather, I love myself so much that I want her to be able to experience a life beyond her wildest dreams.
A life filled with the relationships I desire, owning a homestead, motherhood, and abundance in every area. All the things I’ve put in the ‘someday’ category while I focused on building my business and reaching the next career milestone. Since I moved to Washington, it’s as if the wet blanket I was wearing has been taken off and there's been a shift deep within my soul. A shift from “I need these things to be happy” to “I love myself so much, I’m going to do this for me”. I used to chase goals and milestones because I thought they would bring me happiness. Isn’t that why most people do what they do? Here’s the thing with that mindset, it keeps us trapped in the never-ending cycle of doing more and not feeling as though we are enough. A cycle I’m familiar with. A cycle that, until 2020, has dictated many of the actions I’ve taken in life. My sun sign is in Capricorn and I value hard work and making a difference in the world. In my twenties I focused my energy on going to college and building my career in the Interior Design Industry. In my thirties my focus has been discovering my life purpose and building a business aligned with that. If I could just reach that next milestone or accomplishment...One of the many epiphanies I had this year was how flawed that thinking has been and, by prioritizing my career, I’ve missed out on so much of what I want to experience in life.
This shift from chasing goals to loving myself and the mindset of “I’m doing this for me,” has given my vision purpose and power. It has given my vision a reason. A why that is for me. For my future husband. And for my children.
Since moving I have so much energy, feel activated and READY in a way I have never felt before. I’m ready to open my heart and allow love in. I’m ready to become a mother. I’m ready to live in true abundance. I am enough. And this is me declaring that I am making myself a priority. Part of this shift is spending less time on social media. For years I’ve used social media as a way to share my journey and inspire others. This year I have felt an energetic shift on the platforms, primarily Instagram. A darkness. The new Terms & Conditions confirmed everything I have felt. We ALL have the choice on how we choose to spend our time and what we support. Everytime I log into Instagram or Facebook I’m saying I’m okay with censorship, control and selling our information. I’m using my vote to vote against it. I opt out. And I would highly recommend watching The Social Dilemma on Netflix to discover how you’d like to use your vote moving forward. Here’s the exciting thing about making this powerful choice - I’m feeling inspired to write again so you’ll be hearing from me more! I also feel called to connect with people in a more authentic and vulnerable way. I even created a new program, a new opportunity to DREAM!
Do you want to join me on this path? Are you ready to make yourself a priority? Are you ready to quit the bullshit and break the cycle of not enoughness?
2020 has been wild and weird. We’ve collectively ALL experienced it and moving forward we ALL have a choice. You can keep living the same year over and over and call it a life. Or you can break the cycle. Your choice. Let’s do this together, in sisterhood. With the recent changes I’ve made in the ways to work with me, and with everything we’ve created at The Revolutionary Woman in the last year, there's a lot of different options at different price points on how you can begin the journey home to your truest, most authentic, and liberated self. Click here to book a call to begin your Journey Home.It all begins with one step. Allow me to guide you.With love and gratitude from the shadows.
xo,
Em
